sundaes

it's 1:30am and my husband is sleeping next to me
he has a long day tomorrow
he's very sweet as he sleeps
he's sweet awake too

sometimes i need to pinch myself to make sure i'm not dreaming
how did all this happen
in 9 days it will be a year
what a year - fell in love, married, moved

it's amazing how some things in life come to pass
how some dreams come true
when i was younger i always wanted someone tall, strong, manly,
someone of a different culture so i'd have cute kids,
someone that would make me weak in the knees

when i was a little older and, after much hardship, wiser
i learned that i needed someone sincerely kind, loving, gentle
very patient
someone who was self-reflective and spiritual
someone who i could laugh with - endlessly
someone who would make me want to be a better person
(not make me feel like i should be a better person)

so now i need to pinch myself
again and again and again
because i can't believe that i found someone who has all the things i need

and then to top it all off
the cherry on my delicious
hot fudge (ok, i don't really like cherries on my sundae, but it helps with the visual)
sundae
is that my someone is also tall, strong, manly, culturally different, and makes me weak in the knees!

pinch
pinch
pinch

how often does that happen?

we still have the living together things to iron out
the day to day stuff
learning more about each other, adapting to each other
but through it all
i can't help but wonder what, if anything, i've done to deserve him

he's much better than i am
kinder, gentler, much more patient

one thing is for sure, he does inspire me
just being around him makes me want to be better.