frustration

today i spent 3 late night hours trying to make my blog look pretty

i found Zoot - she has the most amazing blog designs
she says "everyone deserves a pretty blog"

i want a pretty blog!
i do!
i do!

she has this pretty pink and green one that made me want to dance
a little bit of colour in my otherwise taupe world

everything is neutral in my house
as a teacher i'm surrounded by colour - often primary colours
so when i come home i want something
calm
soothing
relaxing
but i'm not teaching right now

and i want colour
i want fun

but the blog gods are conspiring against me
they use my lack of computer savvy to mock me
they show me beauty, fun, happiness
make it free (notice reference to no job a few sentences up)
and then won't let me have it

is this a lesson in detachment?
i don't know

you should check out her site maybe you'll have more luck