time for yoga?

i love my husband
i love my family
i love my house

i have a great relationship with my stepdaughters
i have a job i enjoy
with a class i could only dream of
my principal is an exceptional boss

i've made friends at work
and even better friends outside

so why am i so angry?
why does the slightest thing set me off?

i've gained weight
i don't feel comfortable in my own skin
i miss home
i don't see my family
i don't see my friends
i'm cold and miserable in this city
my face is dry
my hands are cracked
my pants are dirty from all the mud and snow
i don't know how to drive in the snow
i have far less independence

true

there are many inconveniences

but

why so angry?

i don't like who i've become
i need to pray more
move more
do more
love more
eat less

i hate being this angry
i hate giving into the anger
i need to learn how to relax
how to let go
how to be detached

grrrrr!

was getting ready for dinner at someone's home
my grandmother's cousin
much older couple

needed to look dignified
well dressed
groomed

tried on my nice black pants
too tight

why does getting married make you gain weight
he says i look beautiful
can't see a difference

i feel a difference
i see a difference

sad
angry
depressed
fat fat fat
i hate it
don't look at my chubbies
don't touch my chubbies

i want to hide
from the world
how did this happen?
i know
i ate too much
i moved too little

came to a new city
no job
freezing damn cold and snowy all the time
-30
-40
"oh it's so warm it's 0 degrees!" (all celsius)

people out in shorts at 0
me - at home trying to stay warm

now i just feel horrible
and ugly

a thousand words

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